Long Weekend Half-Way Over

Yesterday, I spent a fair part of the day trying to figure out what I was going to do. I'd get up to do something, then, after five minutes of ruminating, I'd sit down for another half hour, and start the process all over again. It was so hot and humid so getting into tape loop way of thinking was very easy to do. Normally, I don't mind the echoing. After all, much of life is repetitive. Computers are like that. They do the same things over and over again, and no one complains. I guess that's the nature of a machine.

I like to think of myself as creative and free-thinking, not a slave to habit, or compulsion, and that's probably what troubled me when I was unable to decide what I wanted to do yesterday. Besides, weekends pass so quickly. I didn't want to find myself late on Sunday afternoon saying, why didn't I do anything all weekend?

Today is different.  I went with the flow. I woke up late, and turned my back on expectations. Pepito and I took a drive. I bought a cup of coffee, then we went to a local wooded lake area for a walk. It was so cool and tranquil, and we so much enjoyed the scenery and seeing other people and their dogs walking that I forgot about what we were supposed to do. I just enjoyed the moment. Yes, I was in the moment as they say when you're an Actor. I was just an actor playing out my scene in life, and could have cared less about anything else at that time. Now that's living. And to be honest, if that's the only thing of consequence I do for the rest of the weekend, then I've done something grand. Amen.