No wonder... I got the blues.

You're nothin', fool. Illusion
is the cross you hang upon. Buddha,
Allah, Jah Rastafari, and Jesus.
No one hears or cares. Open your throat to the desert,
unholy soul, broke, joker who played
his final hand. Now you fold,
dressed like a crow,
black as Ma Rainey's bottom, blessed,
fucked up, pill drunk and pussy stoned,
but where's the love?

No wonder... I got the blues.
No wonder... I got the blues.

Gather no moss, slippery stone,
roll over the precipice down into the pit.
This is it, your home. Regrets,
but you made it your own.
Bustin' with things of bling,
but fallin', old shack empty.
Her scent lingers, hangs
like death in the afternoon.
Time's  a'tickin',
but not on your side.

No wonder... I got the blues.
No wonder... I got the blues.


You're Sisyphus trying
to move the boulder, no closer
to Midnight, then Dawn
punches you
in the solar plexus,
Love dog bark, and Love dog bite.
Hole in the sky,
hole of holes. Bye-bye.
I bet You didn't know
so many ways to feel it.

No wonder... I got the blues.
No wonder... I got the blues.

Soul Baby

I was thinking of something old and antiqued,
words that could express sentiments just under skin,
pool into a spring, seemingly peaceful, flat on the surface,
cold clear liquid, but it's not.

Vanity
Pride
Insecurity
fast food
with bloody gristle on the side,
the stench of french fries, greasy chicken
gut bomb, bombastic, deep, dark speak,
crow-colored syllables with hues of blue,
greens of forest conifers,
the meander of rivers,
forgetfulness
like Lethe.

Damned those Greeks
for naming a path to Hell.
Felt it in my heart,
known it in my mind,
but what say you, Soul?
Mad-Hattered, yet holy, lovely little Buddha,
freakish mighty midget Jesus of Coney Island,
your Side Show Carny Barker Boss (not as amusing as Art)
will pimp you out until they carry you off,
lay you out like a prairie for all to see.

So...
Interrupt my life,
Baby Soul,
with Vesuvius orgasms,
ride my face in shaky, slow motion,
your funky, sweet peach juices flood my mouth,
your moans drone over midnight
like an Etta James chorus.
You, Desert of Delight, dying lovers
still lust for your perfumed Oasis,
hang their tongues from their mouths
to taste the air like lust-struck lions
needing it, cocks and clits slick and hard
waiting for your finger-fuck and stroke,
in and out, in and out, out and in.
Ride, reverse Cow Girl into the sunset
until I'm turned into a cadaver,
my cock still hard in the coffin,
died with that smile,
went home, fulfilled,
satisfied
like a Pharaoh
borne on a solar bark
to the Valley
of the Kings

Death in the Woods

Ah, to be the ceaseless beast
heart thumping, pulsing,
hungry, humping
just because,
not needing anyone or love
not a thing sucks,
no words worth
repeating
when the Blue Jay
sounds alarm
300,000 leagues away
closer to life and death
farther from anything
neighbor Doe will ever know.
He knows no better
but you're just a piece
of meat
it's teeth
locked on your throat,
dragged to the ground
spewing blood
gurgling
suffocating
seconds from the last pulse
miles from cliche
fading into mystery
you smile
knowing this was how
it was truly
meant to be

Death Wish

Hold me tenderly in your arms
I will one day return to dirt
covered in a grass pelt
fur rippling in the wind
forgotten by all
save the last murmurer
of eternity

White Sands Morning

A woman dreams


a breeze


across her body,


a lover's finger


glides up her calf.


She wonders,


should I wake?


Dreams die,


Reality sucks,


but possibility


awakens. Yes,


The Doomsday Clock


creeps closer to Midnight,


but that warm touch


makes her glow like


Uranium 235.


Let isotopes leach out into coolant,


allow subsequent failures


to breach the last layers.


"Hello, lover."


She arches back


silent


ready for meltdown


forever.

Song of a Fool

It sits
above his head,
a dark question mark,
he asks, "why
does this deliciousness
hijack me whole,
vibrates nerves,
balls, brain,
libido." He can't say,
stars wheel and turn,
and he, a desirous dirigible,
ready to burst,
dreams of that picture,
her legs,
thighs down to feet,
landscape of black diamond nylon,
fishnets,
a road less traveled, again.
Beyond,
the horizon is blurred,
uncertain,
fraught with pain, possibly
pleasure. His tongue
dreams serpentine,
slithers up a landscape
of salty skin,
happy-sad,
doped, drunk, hopeful.
She is a river of bliss
he swims down,
drifts in her current
in acquiescence,
surrendering
to the falls,
empty,
alone.

Hernia

Help me, I've fallen

into the pit of mortality,

the rot of the body,

the ruins of a being

I no longer

recognize.

I'd be happier, freer

as a Paramecium in

a Petri dish.

If only my skin

was a cocoon,

I'd wriggle out

into a new form,

not butterfly-beautiful.

I'd settle for mosquito

or amoeba.

Everything is enemy,

the sky, my work,

my memories

infest my hippocampus

like determined termites

burrowing into knotty pine.

Heaven is closed

and so is my colon.

Open, Sesame, please,

deliver me to dreams,

from nights of fearful,

fitful sleep.

I make my own music,

bark hard syllables

from mouth to feet,

a kick, a plead,

a cry over the commode.

My sphincter's frozen,

my bowel's busted,

my urinary tract's backed up.

I'm sick of being in pieces,

a cesspool of yellow and feces,

waking up five times a night

while the Moon limps along

like a broken hobo under

coffee stained clouds

and the wind blows sand and pebbles,

polluted music, across silvered stones.

I pray: Poke me, probe me, prod me.

I'll denounce beauty if need be.

Turn me hideous or Homo Habilis,

return me to some semblance

of what I was. I'll do anything

to live life again and pee freely

like an unobstructed

garden hose.